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24. Guitarist/Bassist/Digital Drummer/Composer for Park Street Menace. Recent transplant to Seattle. Homeless.

Progress, ahoy!

I finally got my financial aid money and am on the search for an apartment to share with two of my friends. Spent all day yesterday going from the Southside around Beacon Hill venturing as far as Sea-Tac to no avail since most of the rental offices were closed due to the snow, and the few that were open didn’t have any 2 bedroom units available. I’ve been keeping my face stuck in school books and typing up my assignments, but admittedly I have done some internet-based procrastination. I’m trying to cut my internet time to focus on my schoolwork. I replaced my stolen phone and now rock the HTC Wildfire S with Virgin Mobile service, as my pay rate of $25 a month for 300 minutes and unlimited text, Web, and data still stands since I’ve had their service since October 2010 before they jacked up the starting rate by $10. Me and my former vocalist Hannah have rekindled our friendship after she’d sent me a lengthy email apologizing for what she’d done and elaborating on her struggles ever since then. That said however, Park Street Menace has reformed with a whole new lineup with me doing lead guitar and primary vocals. Our first jam session is 10-noon today. Aside from one session in my elementary algebra class, my college has been closed all week due to the snow. I intend to go to the next forum there is in Seattle city hall to recommend the plowing and salting program be expanded to open up seasonal/on-call jobs, and essentially prevent the city shutdown that has been going on due to the roads not being maintained regularly. I can’t help but think of when I was in Syracuse, NY where the snow is much worse, but the city has a big enough plow & salt crew that there isn’t a problem with businesses staying closed due to the roads. All the time off from school has allowed me to catch up with my homework, though. Anyway, I’m not going to be on here very much as I have responsibilities once again. My mindset has regressed to my more driven younger self from before my friend DJ died and it all went downhill. I’ve overcome my depression, complacency, and passivity months after ending therapy and medication. By the way, I forgot to mention my intellect and awareness has sharpened since as well. Also, I’m quitting smoking cigarettes (day 2) and I’m cutting back drastically on the pot as to focus on my studies and music without interfering with my improved mindset. I’m also hoping to see a dentist soon to remove what is left of my wisdom teeth as I’m sure my near-perpetual sickness is being exacerbated by their continued rotting presence. I haven’t seen a dentist since I was 17 due to no insurance, but the 45th street clinic might be able to help me with low-cost care. After I take care of all the necessary business with residence, school, and health, I’m getting another Wilshire, microphone, and appropriate accessories to get back on making music, especially seeing as I have new bandmates that are ready to rock. Anyway, it’s now 7:05am and I must get moving to start the day properly. Oh, and one more thing, there won’t be anymore ambiguous love posts. I finally told the person in question how I feel and have moved on. I couldn’t ask for a better friend than her. Okay, I’m done now! Ever forward!

Comment   1 01.20.12
did-you-kno:

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Just in case you still don’t understand how it’s so awesome.

did-you-kno:

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Just in case you still don’t understand how it’s so awesome.

Comment   did-you-kno   3439 01.17.12
stfuconservatives:

ideasandopinions:

Colorblind Ideology is a Form of Racism
What is racial colorblindness?
Racial issues are often uncomfortable to discuss and rife with stress and controversy. Many ideas have been advanced to address this sore spot in the American psyche. Currently, the most pervasive approach is known as colorblindness. Colorblindness is the racial ideology that posits the best way to end discrimination is by treating individuals as equally as possible, without regard to race, culture, or ethnicity.
At its face value, colorblindness seems like a good thing — really taking MLK seriously on his call to judge people on the content of their character rather than the color of their skin. It focuses on commonalities between people, such as their shared humanity.
However, colorblindness alone is not sufficient to heal racial wounds on a national or personal level. It is only a half-measure that in the end operates as a form of racism.
Problems with the colorblind approach
Racism? Strong words, yes, but let’s look the issue straight in its partially unseeing eye. In a colorblind society, White people, who are unlikely to experience disadvantages due to race, can effectively ignore racism in American life, justify the current social order, and feel more comfortable with their relatively privileged standing in society (Fryberg, 2010). Most minorities, however, who regularly encounter difficulties due to race, experience colorblind ideologies quite differently. Colorblindness creates a society that denies their negative racial experiences, rejects their cultural heritage, and invalidates their unique perspectives.
Let’s break it down into simple terms: Color-Blind = “People of color — we don’t see you (at least not that bad ‘colored’ part).” As a person of color, I like who I am, and I don’t want any aspect of that to be unseen or invisible. The need for colorblindness implies there is something shameful about the way God made me and the culture I was born into that we shouldn’t talk about. Thus, colorblindness has helped make race into a taboo topic that polite people cannot openly discuss. And if you can’t talk about it, you can’t understand it, much less fix the racial problems that plague our society.
Colorblindness is not the answer
Many Americans view colorblindness as helpful to people of color by asserting that race does not matter (Tarca, 2005). But in America, most underrepresented minorities will explain that race does matter, as it affects opportunities, perceptions, income, and so much more. When race-related problems arise, colorblindness tends to individualize conflicts and shortcomings, rather than examining the larger picture with cultural differences, stereotypes, and values placed into context. Instead of resulting from an enlightened (albeit well-meaning) position, colorblindness comes from a lack of awareness of racial privilege conferred by Whiteness (Tarca, 2005). White people can guiltlessly subscribe to colorblindness because they are usually unaware of how race affects people of color and American society as a whole.
Colorblindness in a psychotherapeutic relationship
How might colorblindness cause harm? Here’s an example close to home for those of you who are psychologically-minded. In the not-so-distant past, in psychotherapy a client’s racial and ethnic remarks were viewed as a defensive shift away from important issues, and the therapist tended to interpret this as resistance (Comas-Diaz & Jacobsen, 1991). However, such an approach hinders the exploration of conflicts related to race, ethnicity, and culture. The therapist doesn’t see the whole picture, and the client is left frustrated.
A colorblind approach effectively does the same thing. Blind means not being able to see things. I don’t want to be blind. I want to see things clearly, even if they make me uncomfortable. As a therapist I need to be able to hear and “see” everything my client is communicating on many different levels. I can’t afford to be blind to anything. Would you want to see a surgeon who operated blindfolded? Of course not. Likewise, a therapist should not be blinded either, especially to something as critical as a person’s culture or racial identity. By encouraging the exploration of racial and cultural concepts, the therapist can provide a more authentic opportunity to understand and resolve the client’s problems (Comas-Diaz & Jacobsen, 1991).
Nonetheless, I have encountered many fellow therapists who ascribe to a colorblind philosophy. They ignore race or pretend its personal, social, and historical effects don’t exist. This approach ignores the incredibly salient experience of being stigmatized by society and represents an empathetic failure on the part of the therapist. Colorblindness does not foster equality or respect; it merely relieves the therapist of his or her obligation to address important racial differences and difficulties.
Multiculturalism is better than blindness
Research has shown that hearing colorblind messages predict negative outcomes among Whites, such as greater racial bias and negative affect; likewise colorblind messages cause stress in ethnic minorities, resulting in decreased cognitive performance (Holoien et al., 2011). Given how much is at stake, we can no longer afford to be blind. It’s time for change and growth. It’s time to see.
The alternative to colorblindness is multiculturalism, an ideology that acknowledges, highlights, and celebrates ethnoracial differences. It recognizes that each tradition has something valuable to offer. It is not afraid to see how others have suffered as a result of racial conflict or differences.
So, how do we become multicultural? The following suggestions would make a good start (McCabe, 2011):
Recognizing and valuing differences,
Teaching and learning about differences, and
Fostering personal friendships and organizational alliances
Moving from colorblindness to multiculturalism is a process of change, and change is never easy, but we can’t afford to stay the same.
References
Comas-Diaz, L., and Jacobsen, F. M. (1991). Clinical Ethnocultural Transference and Countertransference in the Therapeutic Dyad. American Journal of Orthopsychiatry, 61(3), 392-402.
Fryberg, S. M. (2010). When the World Is Colorblind, American Indians Are Invisible: A Diversity Science Approach. Psychological Inquiry, 21(2), 115-119.
Holoien, D. S., and Shelton, J. N. (October 2011). You deplete me: The cognitive costs of colorblindness on ethnic minorities. Journal of Experimental Social Psychology, 10.1016/j.jesp.2011.09.010.
Tarca, K. (2005). Colorblind in Control: The Risks of Resisting Difference Amid Demographic Change. Educational Studies, 38(2), 99-120.
McCabe, J. (2011). Doing Multiculturalism: An Interactionist Analysis of the Practices of a Multicultural Sorority. Journal of Contemporary Ethnography, 40 (5), 521-549.

Reblogging for the next time I hear some “I don’t see race” “by acknowledging race exists, you’re the real racist” “you’re just further dividing us when we should be UNITED!!!” bullshit.

Reblogged because I was guilty of this. Having a few friends that are minorities, and reading their posts dealing with racism and privilege as well as now being in a multicultural studies class has shown me the error of my ways. I am so deeply sorry. I will be more mindful of this as I want to fight for what’s right alongside with my friends.

stfuconservatives:

ideasandopinions:

Colorblind Ideology is a Form of Racism

What is racial colorblindness?

Racial issues are often uncomfortable to discuss and rife with stress and controversy. Many ideas have been advanced to address this sore spot in the American psyche. Currently, the most pervasive approach is known as colorblindness. Colorblindness is the racial ideology that posits the best way to end discrimination is by treating individuals as equally as possible, without regard to race, culture, or ethnicity.

At its face value, colorblindness seems like a good thing — really taking MLK seriously on his call to judge people on the content of their character rather than the color of their skin. It focuses on commonalities between people, such as their shared humanity.

However, colorblindness alone is not sufficient to heal racial wounds on a national or personal level. It is only a half-measure that in the end operates as a form of racism.

Problems with the colorblind approach

Racism? Strong words, yes, but let’s look the issue straight in its partially unseeing eye. In a colorblind society, White people, who are unlikely to experience disadvantages due to race, can effectively ignore racism in American life, justify the current social order, and feel more comfortable with their relatively privileged standing in society (Fryberg, 2010). Most minorities, however, who regularly encounter difficulties due to race, experience colorblind ideologies quite differently. Colorblindness creates a society that denies their negative racial experiences, rejects their cultural heritage, and invalidates their unique perspectives.

Let’s break it down into simple terms: Color-Blind = “People of color — we don’t see you (at least not that bad ‘colored’ part).” As a person of color, I like who I am, and I don’t want any aspect of that to be unseen or invisible. The need for colorblindness implies there is something shameful about the way God made me and the culture I was born into that we shouldn’t talk about. Thus, colorblindness has helped make race into a taboo topic that polite people cannot openly discuss. And if you can’t talk about it, you can’t understand it, much less fix the racial problems that plague our society.

Colorblindness is not the answer

Many Americans view colorblindness as helpful to people of color by asserting that race does not matter (Tarca, 2005). But in America, most underrepresented minorities will explain that race does matter, as it affects opportunities, perceptions, income, and so much more. When race-related problems arise, colorblindness tends to individualize conflicts and shortcomings, rather than examining the larger picture with cultural differences, stereotypes, and values placed into context. Instead of resulting from an enlightened (albeit well-meaning) position, colorblindness comes from a lack of awareness of racial privilege conferred by Whiteness (Tarca, 2005). White people can guiltlessly subscribe to colorblindness because they are usually unaware of how race affects people of color and American society as a whole.

Colorblindness in a psychotherapeutic relationship

How might colorblindness cause harm? Here’s an example close to home for those of you who are psychologically-minded. In the not-so-distant past, in psychotherapy a client’s racial and ethnic remarks were viewed as a defensive shift away from important issues, and the therapist tended to interpret this as resistance (Comas-Diaz & Jacobsen, 1991). However, such an approach hinders the exploration of conflicts related to race, ethnicity, and culture. The therapist doesn’t see the whole picture, and the client is left frustrated.

A colorblind approach effectively does the same thing. Blind means not being able to see things. I don’t want to be blind. I want to see things clearly, even if they make me uncomfortable. As a therapist I need to be able to hear and “see” everything my client is communicating on many different levels. I can’t afford to be blind to anything. Would you want to see a surgeon who operated blindfolded? Of course not. Likewise, a therapist should not be blinded either, especially to something as critical as a person’s culture or racial identity. By encouraging the exploration of racial and cultural concepts, the therapist can provide a more authentic opportunity to understand and resolve the client’s problems (Comas-Diaz & Jacobsen, 1991).

Nonetheless, I have encountered many fellow therapists who ascribe to a colorblind philosophy. They ignore race or pretend its personal, social, and historical effects don’t exist. This approach ignores the incredibly salient experience of being stigmatized by society and represents an empathetic failure on the part of the therapist. Colorblindness does not foster equality or respect; it merely relieves the therapist of his or her obligation to address important racial differences and difficulties.

Multiculturalism is better than blindness

Research has shown that hearing colorblind messages predict negative outcomes among Whites, such as greater racial bias and negative affect; likewise colorblind messages cause stress in ethnic minorities, resulting in decreased cognitive performance (Holoien et al., 2011). Given how much is at stake, we can no longer afford to be blind. It’s time for change and growth. It’s time to see.

The alternative to colorblindness is multiculturalism, an ideology that acknowledges, highlights, and celebrates ethnoracial differences. It recognizes that each tradition has something valuable to offer. It is not afraid to see how others have suffered as a result of racial conflict or differences.

So, how do we become multicultural? The following suggestions would make a good start (McCabe, 2011):

  1. Recognizing and valuing differences,
  2. Teaching and learning about differences, and
  3. Fostering personal friendships and organizational alliances

Moving from colorblindness to multiculturalism is a process of change, and change is never easy, but we can’t afford to stay the same.

References

Comas-Diaz, L., and Jacobsen, F. M. (1991). Clinical Ethnocultural Transference and Countertransference in the Therapeutic Dyad. American Journal of Orthopsychiatry, 61(3), 392-402.

Fryberg, S. M. (2010). When the World Is Colorblind, American Indians Are Invisible: A Diversity Science Approach. Psychological Inquiry, 21(2), 115-119.

Holoien, D. S., and Shelton, J. N. (October 2011). You deplete me: The cognitive costs of colorblindness on ethnic minorities. Journal of Experimental Social Psychology, 10.1016/j.jesp.2011.09.010.

Tarca, K. (2005). Colorblind in Control: The Risks of Resisting Difference Amid Demographic Change. Educational Studies, 38(2), 99-120.

McCabe, J. (2011). Doing Multiculturalism: An Interactionist Analysis of the Practices of a Multicultural Sorority. Journal of Contemporary Ethnography, 40 (5), 521-549.

Reblogging for the next time I hear some “I don’t see race” “by acknowledging race exists, you’re the real racist” “you’re just further dividing us when we should be UNITED!!!” bullshit.

Reblogged because I was guilty of this. Having a few friends that are minorities, and reading their posts dealing with racism and privilege as well as now being in a multicultural studies class has shown me the error of my ways. I am so deeply sorry. I will be more mindful of this as I want to fight for what’s right alongside with my friends.

(via stfuconservatives)

Comment   psychologytoday.com   1198 01.14.12
glitterandhorror:

“Once a psychiatrist wrote me. He had a young patient who had heard of Freddy Krueger and was having nightmares about him. I really wanted to help, so I got in touch with Robert and asked him if he would say a few words to the kid into a vidcam. Not only did Robert do that, but he did it while he was being put into, and then out of, his Freddy makeup, describing each step on the way how Freddy was nothing more than latex and glue, and nothing to be worried about. Shortly after I mailed the tape to the doctor, I received a letter in return. The youngster was not only cured, he wanted to watch a Freddy movie!”  Wes Craven, on Robert Englund

glitterandhorror:

“Once a psychiatrist wrote me. He had a young patient who had heard of Freddy Krueger and was having nightmares about him. I really wanted to help, so I got in touch with Robert and asked him if he would say a few words to the kid into a vidcam. Not only did Robert do that, but he did it while he was being put into, and then out of, his Freddy makeup, describing each step on the way how Freddy was nothing more than latex and glue, and nothing to be worried about. Shortly after I mailed the tape to the doctor, I received a letter in return. The youngster was not only cured, he wanted to watch a Freddy movie!”  Wes Craven, on Robert Englund

(via fuckyeahrobertenglund)

Comment   glitterandhorror   66 01.10.12
thedailywhat:

Legalize It of the Day: A 20-year, federally funded study conducted jointly by researchers at UCSF and UAB found that smoking marijuana once a week, or even once a day in some instances, did no long-term damage to the lungs.
The study, published today in the the Journal of the American Medical Association, tracked 5,000 individuals across 20 years, and compared their usage of marijuana and tobacco to their health stats.
Cigarette smokers saw a considerable loss in lung function over time, but participants who smokes marijuana as often as once a day for seven years saw no change.
Additionally, no harmful effects were recorded in individuals who smoked marijuana occasionally for longer.
According to the study’s authors, one possible explanation for the results may be THC — the active ingredient in marijuana. The compound is known to combat inflammation, and may be responsible for offsetting irritants that cause lung problems.
Dr. Stefan Kertesz, the study’s co-author, also posits that an unintended side-effect of marijuana usage is the strengthening lung tissue as a result of breathing deeply during inhalation.
And as if all that wasn’t enough, researchers found that pot smoking might actually improve lung function. “At levels of marijuana exposure commonly seen in Americans, occasional marijuana use was associated with increases in lung air flow rates and increases in lung capacity,” Kertesz said.
He did note that the increase was not enough to “make you feel better,” but, then again, if you’re smoking marijuana, chances are you’re already feeling pretty great. 
[ap / afp.]

I’m not big on glorifying weed or the culture surrounding it, but I’m definitely up for spreading sound information and dispelling myths. I partake in smoking from time to time, but I do have my priorities over it. That and well, there’s this woman I really, REALLY like who is highly allergic to it, and I’d like to see where things go with me and her. I’d much rather give up pot in favor of amazing people’s company.

thedailywhat:

Legalize It of the Day: A 20-year, federally funded study conducted jointly by researchers at UCSF and UAB found that smoking marijuana once a week, or even once a day in some instances, did no long-term damage to the lungs.

The study, published today in the the Journal of the American Medical Association, tracked 5,000 individuals across 20 years, and compared their usage of marijuana and tobacco to their health stats.

Cigarette smokers saw a considerable loss in lung function over time, but participants who smokes marijuana as often as once a day for seven years saw no change.

Additionally, no harmful effects were recorded in individuals who smoked marijuana occasionally for longer.

According to the study’s authors, one possible explanation for the results may be THC — the active ingredient in marijuana. The compound is known to combat inflammation, and may be responsible for offsetting irritants that cause lung problems.

Dr. Stefan Kertesz, the study’s co-author, also posits that an unintended side-effect of marijuana usage is the strengthening lung tissue as a result of breathing deeply during inhalation.

And as if all that wasn’t enough, researchers found that pot smoking might actually improve lung function. “At levels of marijuana exposure commonly seen in Americans, occasional marijuana use was associated with increases in lung air flow rates and increases in lung capacity,” Kertesz said.

He did note that the increase was not enough to “make you feel better,” but, then again, if you’re smoking marijuana, chances are you’re already feeling pretty great. 

[ap / afp.]

I’m not big on glorifying weed or the culture surrounding it, but I’m definitely up for spreading sound information and dispelling myths. I partake in smoking from time to time, but I do have my priorities over it. That and well, there’s this woman I really, REALLY like who is highly allergic to it, and I’d like to see where things go with me and her. I’d much rather give up pot in favor of amazing people’s company.

Tagged: Legalize It, .
Comment   thedailywhat   13614 01.10.12
My Parents, slightly adjusted to make River Song Miss Frizzle, but Miss Frizzle is my mom.

My Parents, slightly adjusted to make River Song Miss Frizzle, but Miss Frizzle is my mom.

Comment   1 01.09.12

stfuconservatives:

closer-than-heaven:

Washington followers! Our state will be the 1st to pass this necessary law, if we can convince our legislature! Spread the word to gain support for equal access!

Signal boost - reblog for your Washington readers!

Comment   closer-than-heaven   369 01.09.12
Comment   atheism-on-the-go   182 01.09.12

Ballad of the Brony: A Documentary on Bronies and Friendship is Magic.

Whether you yourself are part of the herd or just don’t get what all the hullabaloo is about, this is a must-watch. It eloquently and humorously discusses the series, the fanbase, the controversies, and how the show isn’t “just for little girls.”

Comment   2 01.08.12

tithenai:

sorcyress:

edman:

s-guy:

Oh my god I’ve never seen the whole thing before. X3

CONTEXT IS KING!

AhahahahahahahhahahahAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHahahahah!

I also had not seen the original context!

Comment   biggariswise   27170 01.08.12
I’ve turned into a pony.
You can too at this site (copypasta the link else you get 403’d):
http://d.facdn.net/art/shadarack/1305496044.shadarack_pony_generator_mark2.swf

I’ve turned into a pony.

You can too at this site (copypasta the link else you get 403’d):

http://d.facdn.net/art/shadarack/1305496044.shadarack_pony_generator_mark2.swf

Comment   2 01.08.12
Comment   1 01.08.12

boybitch:

chaseross:

watch it.

about not being “trans enough”

cool points + babe points + trans boy dyke solidarity. 

This takes a huge load off my chest once you switch the gender identity terms to fit.

(via genderqueer)

Comment   chaseross   712 01.07.12

The weekend before I’m off the streets and back in a classroom, I stumble upon this. 

I of course am the one with the fading purple hair.

This is the shelter that I’ve been going to since June 16th. A month and a half later, the two pieces of shit next to me decided to blame me for all of our collective problems, take all of my belongings I didn’t have on me, pawn it off, and leave me there on my own. Shit went sour between me and some friends, bad things happened, that have since been resolved. Since then, I’ve gotten very well acquainted with just about everyone you see in this video. Ben is going to be one of my housemates, even.

It’s taken me nearly 7 months to get where I am today and I didn’t need to fuck someone over to do it. I’m not proud that it’s taken me this long, but it’s something I’ve had to deal with. I’ve met a lot of interesting people over the course of time that I’ve been at this shelter. A lot of great people who are/were in a situation similar to mine, along with a bunch of knuckleheads.

The staff have always been amazing, kind, understanding, and most of all generous people. They’ve seen the many ups and downs I’ve been through and have always been there for me. My personal thanks to all of you.

Comment   1 01.07.12
Comment   1 01.06.12